That one thing that bothers me..

About being a ts is not the discrimination, or the hormone shots, or trying to find a job, it is the fact that I cannot hang out with three girlsfriends pick up the phone and call a man that likes me and say: "Can you invite two of your friends over for my girlfriends."

It seems weird and childish but I cannot stop thinking about it. And it all started because I made plans to hang out with one of my girlfriends (another ts) at her house, and I just keep flashing back to when I was hanging out with my non ts friend. (See post "sweet and sour weekend" ) I mean it is soo easy for a girl to call a man up and say; "I am hanging with my girls, if you want to come over you have to bring enough men to keep them occupied." We don't have that. IF you are lucky to find a nice guy who is open about dating ts woman, he still does not hang around other men who do, I mean maybe they do, but I have not met any.

And so we are just left in this weird place where we can have a man, bf, whatever, but he does not have friends for your gf's to date, and isn't that how most people date now? Like I said, I know it is childish and stupid, but it has been bugging me all morning.

oh well.

Sweet and Sour weekend!!!

This weekend was soo much fun even though my roommate had to fuck up the last little bit of it. And do you know how she messed it up? because after coming from a friends house party at 3:30 in the morning I found her friends in MY BED making out. Like seriously touching, shirt off, where is the condom session ON MY BED!! Like who does that, I mean really what type of friend has their friends make out on her roommates bed? I mean if they would have been on the floor I would have been angry but not as upset as I was to find them in my bed. And you know what the kicker is! I came back at 3:30. EVERY club in LA closes at 2am so they probably waited until 2:45 to see if I was gonna come back home and then decided; "Oh fuck that bitch, just use her room."

WAIT there is more! So I come in and I'm like " get the fuck out my room" and the boy responds "Can you give me 30 minutes." ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!! Lets just say they got the fuck out of my bed and left my house. My roommate and I dont talk anymore, cause honestly that bitch is shady and I dont like fake people around me.

Whew, now I am done with the negative let me tell you about the positive part of the week. So I went out to this house party and met a cute man. He was HOT bitches! Yes he was mother-fucking HOT!!! But none of the people there knew my T (for those who don't know, that mean he did not know I was born a man). But he kept flirting with me and corning me in the house so finally I just gave in and kissed him. OH MY GOD his lips were soo soft, that we just kept kissing for the entire night. Not only was he a good kisser but he did not know I was a TS which made me feel CUNT!!! CUNT BITCHES!!! I felt like straight up fish on a stick. :-) He was holding my hand, and we kept makiing out when we found a dark corner and not one person at the party knew my T cause if they did I am sure they would have went up to him and told him ( which people have done plenty of times).

Yes I know I was wrong to kiss him because he did not know I was a ts, but if he likes the way I look I dont see THAT much harm is just kissing the man. It is not like I was gonna sleep with him there (Of course if I had a puss I would have!) I just wanted to feel pretty, and usually when I go to parties where people know I am a ts men dont like to come up to me. :-( I know that is a fucked up reason and I promise to try not to do it again, but girl!!! That boy made my 2007!